BoringYetGraceful

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You are not a prisoner to know the feeling of being corrected for what you have done wrong. School examinations and your parents' teaching surely give something worthwhile about how to be corrected when you fail and miss the mark of what needs to be done. Life is not about being like Stephen Curry throwing some 3s forever, you'll have some Rodman and O'Neal in your life to push you out of the court and feel the hardcourt like MMA.

This will be fast...

Regret and Hurt

Sabi nga ni kaibagang Emman nasan man siya ngayon, safety first kaya nasa huli ang pagsisisi. We are reminded, warned, and foretold ahead of what is good and bad yet we test the lines between life and death and taste how it feels beyond the tree of life and knowledge. Then once the quickie satisfaction ends, the thorns and thistles appear backstabbing us into an eternity of bewildering misery of dark clouds and thunderstorms. Flooding you with an unlimited supply of hurt yet...

Acceptance, and Forgiveness

Acceptance is the key, the sunshine will come but you need to see the sunset of your past as it farewells its sweet and sour goodbye, letting go, breathing away all those wrongs you have done. You can ask God to take away all the pain. His overflowing supply of forgiveness like an ocean to be fill in your teaspoon of pain will ease everything in the blink of an eye. Nothing compares to His loving arms, full of hope, and you will see a new day dawning for you given by Him. Nothing is sweeter than Jesus, your lips will surely tell.

Gratefulness

The sun now shines brightly more than diamonds in the sky. The salty sea breeze in your nostrils, feel the air of new hope, new horizons, a future that is yours from God. You are fully known by Him. The battered and bittered heart that came from a stone is now a grateful heart, softened with more than a fabric conditioner, but by Jesus alone. Now the life you have is not yours but for Him, who crosses the shittiest line for you during your selfish days, and took all the pain for you and me, so we can have a life fully.

Be grateful, forever grateful.

rizal

Goal setting is important in life, but I don't know when that idea started. Just Google it. And as we set goals. We must go there, and yes, getting there is the most hardest part of all. Losing weight, getting back in shape (from trapezoid to square), getting all those numbers back again to normal like blood pressure at sugar, whatever normal to you. You can just declare this is the new normal. Like you're 50kg before and now you're 150kg then declare it as your normal. Hindi naman natin maibabalik yung nakaraan, adding body weight is easy, trimming is a different story, like those memories from the past kung ano mang past meron ka.

Getting there, we measure the progress, parang papunta ka ng Manila di ba, if galing kang Basilan, at katatapos lang ng terror training mo, at ready na sa another photo bombing session sa MRT line 3, you measure the progress by the distance. Pero minsan mahirap sukatin yung layo mo sa kanya kung wala ka talagang pagasa. As you move closer to Manila, you know you are getting there until you set foot, katabi si Rizal sa luneta. Maynila na ako! Goal achieve yet, but what's next?

That's our next point, so what's the point in all of this ika nga ng isang awitin na hindi ka mapapasayaw kung hindi ikaw ay mapapaluha, sa dami ng eyeliner na ginamit mo, pati iris mo nalagyan, kanta din yun ah? Our point here is that goals are like family parang problema, magkakamag-anak yarn pero different clans sila except they have effect sa katawan natin, bakit na ako napunta dito? Like envy and jealousy, masakit sa tyan yan, kahit mag take ka anti-acid at omeprazole, hindi mawawala, baka mawala pati fatty liver mo. Unless isuko mo kay Lord na magsusupply ng pag-ibig na higit pa sa lahat.

Goals are family, once you achieve something like arriving on Luneta, eating balot and adobo ice cream, while a snatcher takes your wallet too kesa naman puso mo. You need another goal to accomplish. Given yarn, maybe kiss the guards that stand by with Rizal, buti sya may guard, eh puso mo, pakabit ka na lang ng CCTV, mahirap na maakyat bahay tangay puso mo.

So goals are like dominoes, masarap ba pizza nila? It doesn't end lang sa isa, kapag sinagot ka naman diba? Hindi lang doon natatapos unless tapusin nyo talaga, napaka short-term naman noon at least walang critical damage sa Pilipinas. Kung gusto mo tawagin natin si Taguro, minahal mo ba siya ng 100 porsyento, tapos na spirit ray gun ka lang. Katapusan mo na!

Nawala na sa hulog itong binabasa mo.

As we progress in certain goals, there are mini goals along with it, ano na ba tawag doon? Nag Google pa ako pambihira, Milestone.

The main goal is photo bomb sa MRT Line 3, yet at the moment, gusto mo na iuwi si Rizal pabalik ng Basilan which wala sa mini goals. Marupok ka kasi at malapit ka sa LRT Line 1 but our milestone here is you already survived sa airport (wala akong alam jan) nag Grab pa Luneta, salip pa Ortigas. Mas pinili mo sa Rizal kesa kay mother mary (let it be, let it be)

Milestone in relationships, este in goal setting, it is important para makita mo ang iyong progress kung nasaan ka na (sa puso nya), parang measuring the distance nun sumakay ka ng airplane (sori hindi pa nakasakay, baka maulit 9-11) from Basilan to Manila.

Goal setting, progress, milestones. Project manager na lang kulang, pray na hindi ka papasukin ng Sabado. As the common goal setting idea, apply SMART.

  • Specific – Photo bomb MRT Line 3 Ortigas Station
  • Measurable – 32 shot SLR Nikkon Kodak Film
  • Achievable – Madaling lang pumunta doon
  • Realistic – its a real place not just in our hearts and mind
  • Time Bound – paktay na tayo, deadline, papasok ka ng Sunday?

I hope as January ends, you already have some goals in mind, like my goal last year is to write 100 chapters yet 51 pa lang ito, kasi walang nagpapadala sa Gcash ko (PM for more info), hahaha. I want to subscribe sa premium ng blog para naman makita nyo yung archive ng past ko este past chapters which is magagawa lang if premium ito, though the free one is enough naman na, the support will push me to write more, though someone already pushed me to write, that person already have the privilege to read the writer first hand. 😉

Thank you for reading. —nml

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

man

It's never too late to greet, and it's still January na naman. This chapter will be written in Tagalog-English, so please bear with me as we dive on the two verses below:

And you shall remember the whole way that the LORD your God has led you these forty years in the wilderness, that he might humble you, testing you to know what was in your heart, whether you would keep his commandments or not. — Deuteronomy 8:2

Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me his own. Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. — Philippians 3:12-14

Everything is written impromptu as I think of the topic on hand. It's literally a draft. As far as I know, this topic came from a sermon, but I already forgot who the speaker is but it's one of the thousands sermon that stuck in my head and as well in my heart. There'll be addition as we go.

It talks about remembering and looking ahead in the life of faith. As they say the Christian life is impossible, and yes, this topic just shows it's hard, yet by the grace of God, the Christian can do it because Jesus already did it.

Deuteronomy 8 talks about remembering the Lord for all what He has done to Israel since day 1, leaving Egypt up until they ready to enter the land of milk and honey. The speaker, Moses didn't get a VIP pass for it, though, Joshua and Caleb did have.

The 2nd verse came from the New Testament, and it's Paul who is talking to the Philippians, and it talks about pressing forward and not looking behind. Here, you're like an athlete pressing on toward what lies ahead.

So what will you do?

And add this verse which now say don't think too much:

But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. — Matthew 6:33-34

So what's the best thing to do? To remember, to look ahead, or just don't think too much and enjoy the present moment?

It's all of the above.

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever. — Hebrews 13:8

All those verses above points toward a name that exist in all time phases.

In Jesus, remembering makes us grateful, the present moment makes us content, and trusting in Him builds confidence for us to face what the future can give.

So teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom. — Psalm 90:12

As we face this new year, the best decision is to cling to God and His Word, and from all the things He has done for us, as we put our faith in Him alone.

To God be the glory.

round house kick goal by pele

Looks like I won't achieve my goal of 100 chapters this year, but I'll continue to write.

Whenever I teach how to play the guitars, I always ask the learner what he or she wants to learn. Most of the people I taught are beginners. As someone said, “begin in the end of mind,” something like that.

It took me 2 months to learn to play cleanly the open chords and the basic bar chords. There is no song yet, and the interest in playing lead guitars is out of my head. I just want to strum and play clean. As my old man says back then, “mag gujangjang ka na naman?”. I was addicted to the process of learning to play the guitars.

After a decade, it became fruitful... somehow, but I'm happy with it.

So, what is your end in mind? Things and stuff you want to be dedicated to. Maybe, world peace? Greenier earth? Less carbon emissions? Stop poverty? Never again? Patalsikin si Erap? Have a heart check, but don't follow it.

As someone said, but he is not a Ghost Fighter Character, aka Yuyu Hakushu in Nippon:

“The heart is more deceitful than all else And is desperately sick; Who can understand it? — Jeremiah 17:9

The majority tells follow your heart, does your heart really know where ever you will go? (So lately.. )

For the ways of a man are before the eyes of the LORD, And He watches all his paths. — Proverbs 5:21

I don't know about you, but someone is looking above, who knows better than you. It's also a good thing to ask Him because, in the end, everyone will face Him.

Then I saw a great white throne and Him who sat upon it, from whose presence earth and heaven fled away, and no place was found for them. And I saw the dead, the great and the small, standing before the throne, and books were opened; and another book was opened, which is the book of life; and the dead were judged from the things which were written in the books, according to their deeds. And the sea gave up the dead which were in it, and death and Hades gave up the dead which were in them; and they were judged, every one of them according to their deeds. Then death and Hades were thrown into the lake of fire. This is the second death, the lake of fire. And if anyone’s name was not found written in the book of life, he was thrown into the lake of fire. — Revelation 20:11-15

hello

Pasko Na!

Half of the month already passed and here I am writing in the middle of the night while listening to some K-pop song.

I think I'm in a life transition right now as new interests comes in and I can feel the inflation due the price hikes in the supermarket but let's talk about in another day.

currentebents

Last month was my mom 70th birthday and it was both stressful and also grateful but the latter covers everything. Another event is I met that someone twice, that someone was on my mom's birthday. I think it was a small celebration in a certain way. Man, I can't stop smiling while writing this one.

old geezer

That's everything for the month of September. Thank you. Please subscribe and hit the bell button. Support me at Tiktok even though I don't have an account.

And More

As I said interest are changing and lately my ship are sailing towards the Berry Pass, please forgive if you don't get it. I'm more into Formula One lately but I'm not rooting for any driver, the cars was cool but don't expect me to learn to drive.

goatsenna

Another one is getting interested into Japanese Citypop!

I can't stop the loneliness! Plastic love! Chinese Restaurant! Sparkle! Stay with me!

Timely!! by Anri

That triggered me to get interested to audiophile, and was able to check my father vinyl record player that is older than me. Its not working sadly, and repair or buying a new one is maharlika funds.

Then it gets me to interested in in-ears monitors, as of writing I bought some even I just had my Samsung Galaxy Buds2 and Sony WH-CH520.

headphonefreak

I'm still reading Gentle and Lowly. Man, I need to check my course. Thankful, that someone, drives me well. Thank you!

Tulog din ng maaga ne?

restless sea

Written in Tagalog-English

Its been a while again, its half a month since I last written here, and here am I trying my best to express myself in words. Recently, I'm silently asking for support, pasensya naman sa QR code ng Gcash ne? Though I know no one will support me in this nano sized endeavor of mine. Ano ba nga naman itong content ko kundi hangin parang kabag lang. I don't expect anything, that's given in life. Minsan need din maging cosmic kill joy ne?

hindi po ako masamang tao

Something Worthwhile

Praying hard and hoping against hope that in every sunset there will a Dawn of a new day! God's mercy is new every morning! Then you will need to timpla some coffee kasi umaga na e, umagang umaga nag-aadik sa caffeine.

tao

Loyalty True Orange

I'm a loyal Samsung fan since 2016, that's why I am not an Apple fan, though I like the design pero minsan hindi mo ma-explain bakit ayaw mo.

2009, the days of MP3 players still exist during that era, then there was a time in my life, I have borrowed an iPod, nakagamit ako yung large at small. The virgin me on how it works, tried to install iTunes in my Win-XP powered PC, why I can't put a song from the PC to the device. Disappointed. Apple left a bitter taste on me kahit gaano pa ka-glamorous yan. Pero okay yung Garage-band.

Galaxy S2 release

2011, fallen in-love with my classmate's Galaxy S2. 2013, nakahawak din ng Android phone, tapos na yung text-call-flashlight na Nokia phone, nag My Phone din ako, then fast forward, 2016 nakagamit din ng Galaxy J5. Muntik ko ng patulan yung Home Credit makahawak ng S7-Edge dati. Pero thank God, for the patience, dami ko pa utang noon.

Sensya na, napa kwento na walang kwenta.

Wait Me Up When September Ends

Nito lang may Canadian vlogger na naging Pinoy na, ako kaya kailan magiging Canadian citizen? Every Filipino dream is to get out of this country unless otherwise you were born with a silver spoon in your mouth then you are in good hands in this archipelago that the main land China dreams to conquer soon.

New Foundland Tim Hortons

Four season countries September marks the end of summer, here it's the stormy season. Lahat ata ng malalakas ng bagyo nataon sa buwan na ito. Memorable yung milenyo kasi nasira yung phone ko nun, napagalitan pa ako, pambihira, ikaw ba naman sumugod sa flash flood. Siguro hanggang dito muna. Salamat.

Bible

I wanted to write something about Bible reading, and I posted something in Instagram Threads pero spoiler pa lang yun. Check it out if you have some time.

I know madami ng tip and tricks regarding it, and as well , ton of books about it and yet the bride ain't able to read her bridegroom's letter. Why? Due to the information age, distractions are everywhere. Even while you're sleeping, someone will surely distract you even if it's a dream or a nightmare.

Before it's too late, here we go...

  1. Read, even if it doesn't make sense. Gaano ka ba kauhaw sa Diyos? If you can't read, listen, watch, view it as something you like, grabe sa dami ng resources today sa Bible. Walang dahilan para tamarin ka magbasa, isipin mo na lang yung mga buhay ng mga unang Christian who lay down their lives for God's Word. Yung iba na bbq while breathing, tapos ikaw mabilad lang sa araw, ouchy Sun burn na me.

  2. Once verse at a time. If you're umay in reading long stuff, why not consume 1 verse at a time. Be a consumer of His Word, be consumed by Him. I think this was me during my elementary and high school days. I read random Bible verses kung ano lang mabuklat ko. Minsan yung Tagalog Bible pa na may drawing, ang cute kasi. If masyadong epic yung mga mahahabang chapter, try 1st John, or Proverbs in a month, utay utayin mo yung Psalms.

  3. Lastly, at wala na kong maisip. Run to Him before it's too late. YOLO, as they say, but have ever applied that term on spiritual matters? YOLO, travel more, sakay ng SpaceX papuntang Mars, sabay magpost sa X, here na me sa Mars mga guys riding the Tesla Mars Roover etc. Kaya ginamit ko na illustration doon sa Threads yung bleeding woman, kasi akala nya wala na pagasa pero meron pa. If I ever touch His (Jesus) robe then...if you don't know what happened. Read your Bible.

Are you like that about His Word?

Finish Lane

Sometimes, being happy too much is bad for the brain, and looking forward to being happy is also bad because the probability of being sad is high, especially when you are not sure why you are happy or the reasons are just to vague and the shadows are much clearer that your expectations. It is better to jump off in a bridge, hit a jeepney byaheng crossing, and end everything in a comma.

The skeptic in me breathed a new mentality and came up with this new realization. FTGGGG, the means Forget The Girls, Give God the Glory.

How do I fall in love again romantically? Forget it, I think I'll stick with Jesus kahit na ganito siguro ako ne? Hindi ko alam. Frustration rises, and I know He is my comfort and the sweetest thing of all. Lilipas din ang ganda ng mga girls. Yung dating coke body magiging coke in can din.

I have memorable scenes crossing the roads of life.

  1. San Fernando, Pampanga. 1998/1999. I was able to cross the 8 lane highway because the Jolibee there, when the middle barriers weren't installed yet, I was 8/9 y/o that time. Who cares getting hit by a speeding provincial bus?

  2. Dasmariñas, Cavite. 2011. 21 y/o me, fighting with her, muntik na ako tamaan ng 16 wheeler truck. Don't ask why we're fighting, I don't expect to fight with one again.

  3. Soon. Kaya lang may footbridge sa Oranbo e.

pakisama nyo na lang ako sa prayers nyo, kung may space pa ne? kung puno na, sa basura na lang po. —nml

King's Affection

The heavy rain is upon us. Electricity is cut-off and though the economy is progressing, as more jobs opened and the price of the daily needs are hiking, the environment is regressing. God said He won't send flooding anymore, the rainbow symbolized that covenant but we humans bring forth floods into ourselves. Such a tragic reality it is nowadays.

By the way whenever I write something here, consider everything as a mere draft yet it's already final. Sana kung may editor lang ako para tingnan itong gawa ko pero wala eh. I just write what comes to mind in a given moment. The title came up during my afternoon walk today. We're now in chapter 44, why not use SAF about it? You know the national issue during the Aquino administration pero I try to use it in such context na malapit sakin, kahit malayo siya. Ganun naman talaga diba?

We only send our affections for those people who we know that will return it, parang bumili ka lang ng Coke na family size dati diba? Merong deposit, kaya surely pagbalik mo nung bote sa tindahan, the deposit will be return to you but how about when affections aren't return at all? Hanap na lang ng iba ne? Hindi lang naman siya ang nag iisang tao dito sa mundo.

Grabe yung mga anonymous post sa BW Community, majority there is single yet look how they face the harsh and bitter world of getting into romantic relationship. Kinaliwa, kinanan, inalipusta, iniwan ng walang dahilan, sumama sa iba na hindi man lang nagpaalam... Sana merong BW community para sa mga married people naman. Hindi na cactus ipupukol nila sayo, dapat yung 39 lashes na parang yung scene sa Passion, tapos ipako patiwarik sa krus. For the sake na magtino lang. Grabe ang harsh ko na.

In my closing, choose people are worth your affections yung bang willing to be affected sa buhay mo lalo na sa darkest moment mo kahit maitim ka naman talaga, like me, nakikita lang pag ngumiti. Our affections are for the few who knows what we worth for, and Jesus know that. He knows you all in all.

room

We're already halfway of 2023 and my goal of 100 chapters seems a mere dream if I don't write anything. I don't even know if people are reading this. Yet, I'm grateful for those few pair of eyes who are able to read my nonsense. Thank you whomever you are.

Recently I'm on my way to getting to know someone, I know it'll be a tough journey again, whatever God plans to be on this aspect of my life. All I can say, I'm uncomfortable with it, do I really need to be in this again? Pwede bang doon na agad? But we're back to square one.

Back to square one. There's too much square to fill in. Some are happy to fill every square in their life and post it to social media. Some do their best to fill it in, some are blessed someone filled it for them. Every squre has their own story, maybe post it in an IG story and tell them, I'm squared, but only one square matters of all and few only have fill it in. Some aren't filled fully.

The square of eternity. It only needs a little room but people forget about it and let their life drowned on squares that doesn't last.