BoringYetGraceful

Written in Filipino

The literal translation of the title is: paano muling malaglag sa kanal o kaya paano muling malaglag sa hagdan at wala namang may balak sumalo sa'yo, something like that.

It's February, ang malamig na simoy ng amihan ay patuloy pa ring nasa hangin. Yung iba nagdaragsa sa City of Pines, in fact nagsawa na ako doon, the place was better way back then at maraming memeries na..., okay tigil na.

Why not write something warm hearted not hotheaded? Yung tipo bang, mapapa-confess ako dito. Father, ako po ang may sala hindi po si Juan...ilang pirasong lumpiang shanghai lang naman yun, buhay na agad kapalit? Okay ibang confession to.

Sili at sibuyas ka ba?, lagi ka na lang nagmamahal, ako ba mahal mo? Sige ito ATM ko, ano? Gcash na lang? Forward mo na lang QR.

The original title of this one is “to the person I admired”, diba Boiling Waters PH lang ang peg. I did write something sa website nila, hanapin nyo na lang. Iniba ko ang title para click bait, loko lang tito nyo ne? La naman ako paki sa traffic. Siguro traffic lang din kaya di pa tayo nagkikita...hmmm.

His Brightness On Her

Minsan okay din naman i-extend ang emosyon sa salita tulad nito, yung iba tula or kanta, or sayaw then upload sa Tiktok. I prefer words, been doing it since HS. Emotion that flows from your finger tips become something worthwhile, expression sya, kaya sasabihin ko na, ano ba? Hype ba ako. Mejo. Puyat na kasi.

After that certain event in my life, it's a quite struggle. Thanks God kasi alam ko kasama ko sya doon sa epic memeries na yun which turn me around in a new page of this life.

And then I saw a light, wala ako sa Damascus road or disco-house ha, nasa bahay lang, browing IG, then I chatted that person.

This certain person I found something about them, this was back in 2019. Though I knew them in person due to youth camps and church events noong kolehiyo kami, hindi ko naman masabi na nalaglag ako sa kanal, kasi iba yung pakiramdam.

Patawad sa illustration pero pagbigyan nyo na, patunay na si Em ang nagsulat.

Mostly guys are like pag nahulog sa kanal, gusto mong salukin lahat ng tubig at buhangin at laman nito at sabihin na sayo na ito, at minsan babakuran mo pa, kahit hindi pa sayo, makikipag-puyatan, tapos hindi mo malagyan ng label...boom! saan ka punta? Sa ilalim ng buwan? (Gets?)

It's a different feeling that's all I can say. I was on recovery on that year too, hindi ko namalayan na, this person became an inspiration for me to move on further, not just in that aspect of life, but also in faith, and me, ending up being interested about church missions and things about it.

Minsan gagamit ng tao or pwede ring kanal, ang Diyos para mapakita nya ang liwanag Niya sayo.

Weighing The Heart

2019 was a good year at nakalimutan ko sya. I wrote a very short poem that time for them. Just check Walls. May picture ng tao nakatingin sa dagat.

Then the rest of 2019 was, I met a dozen of new faces (if isa ka doon pa-heart naman jan). The hand of God uses certain things to spark for our own good and it is up to us whether we will embrace it or not.

Higit pa sa kanal ang naiisin ni Lord sa layp.

Nakapagtataka lang bakit ko sya nakalimutan? Kasi si Lord nakita ko sa buhay ng tao na yun. Fast forward, does this admiration for that person grew? I think yes, but also not. I'm good about killing my joy and so pessimist when it comes to that aspect of life for myself. I did weight my feelings to them and I gained weight not feelings.

Eyes Set To Him

In my POV, she is only an inspiration I can view from afar (literal na far) and I'm already grateful for that. And yes I do pray for her, lalo na sa safety nya and mabing patuloy sya na blessing sa ibang tao.

Kung ano man ang kalooban ng Diyos sa buhay natin, tanggapin natin at magpasalamat, patuloy na magtiwala sa Kanya, kung ano man ang mga bagay na harapin natin sa layp, hold unto His mighty hands, hope, and persevere in faith.

Christ love is so freaking sweet for real.

Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends. — John 15:13