BoringYetGraceful

Decision

Decided to stop doing the 0.x chapters and go straight with it. Now I'm doing the entry in my phone.

Blog entries will be called chapters as it's a chapter of my boring life which I'm trying to share with. Sure Youtuber and Tiktoker are all around but I'm happy with plain words which really reflect who I am.

I speak less since that day though the pandemic also hits and yes, now I speak more less unless there is a report to be done in our work or talking with someone.

My goal is to have 100 chapters in this blog.

It can be simultaneously entry every day, talking about this and that, life and faith, and work and maybe love life if I ever found or God gave me her unless she accept my confession. I'll be rejected for sure, 100% sure. Maraming beses akong na-basted noong college ha, though grateful those ladies are already married and happy. Ano kaya plano ni Lord sakin?

Me? I don't know, life is in pain on that part. Well, my old man and lady are now looking for seed. Me? God, I know you love me but how to fall inlove again romantically? Why this heart so pessimistic though I have a crush. Its weird, well thats me.

Boring

Forget love life for the mean time, if all my crush (plural) got married for the next 12 months, well I'm grateful, then less pain in head thinking, what move I'll do, atleast there's a dude manly enough that loved them. No regrets about that, nagbibilang ako, may dalawa na taken na, engage na ata yung isa.

If I have some funds I'll just try this platform and write my drafts using Jotterpad, so that'll be an added backup.

This is another writing and blogging journey, after what I did last 2013. Somehow life moves on. Frustrated ako noon, and I think still now? I don't know.

Progress

It's been a question for me these days too, accomplishments or progress? I know ton of people are accomplishments freak, but I'm part of the latter one.

Small snail like progress means to me, someone who is frustrated a lot, someone is just like an air in this life yet thanks God, kasi atleast higit pa ako sa hangin dahil sa Kanya.

Small progress is better than regress, being late is better than never. Small things are still big for those trying their best to overcome life, as they hold hands with God. Either walk or crawl. When foot prints on the sand became dragged on the sand.

Life Is

The Christian life is not always joyful as we travel here on earth, we're not for this place but a place better far more where joy blooms in His presence.

Okay, moving on also I'll only share new post via bird app. I'm just a bottom-tier character and I don't want to stand out. I'll just be grateful for those who will read this stuff. Me, sharing and talking boring things, like my favorite ball pen or my crush is....

Anothet goal, is every chapter will be 500 characters. Life is nice as we grow old and and grow up, but part of me still young and aspiring. See you next chapter.

Magugustuhan pa kaya ako ng crush ko kung mukha namang gutter yung mukha ko unless pumunta ako sa North Korea para mag pa-Photoshop kasama ng nuke ni Mr. Kim. Pwede din naman sa Thailand kaya lang baka pagbalik ko, hindi na ako, “ako” (opposite noong nasa Galatians). Oks, thats for the intro, hirap mag type sa tablet ha.

Akala ko hindi ko na masusundan, pero ito, trying my best to be consistent. Kahit yung lang, also anim na araw na ang yung trial. Gusto ko sana himingi ng tulong via Gcash to my “dear readers” kaya lang baka isipin nyo scam lang. And the blog it live to its name, kasi walang traffic, kaya boring in a sense.

Yung sermon last Sunday, tumatak sakin yung “what kind of instrument are you?”. Though yung word na sanctification I read it during college days, pero didn't ring in my head. NGL, lately ko lang naintindihan yung deep theological things about it, Romans ba naman, at alam ko din naman, na binilabago tayo ni Lord araw-araw, but its up to us, the Holy Spirit guide us, pero choose, daan o kanal? Yung bang masikip na yung daan, pipiliin pa din yung kanal.

Back to what kind of instrument are you, instrument of sin or grace? Then ang cool ng tunog ng “instrument of grace” parang yung FB account na nag rant about Kpop and being a Christian, btw may bagong album SNSD!, Yung account nya sa Twitter @redemptivegrace, ang cool din pero iba yung dating once you read his/her post.

Every believer is an instrument of grace, once you take hold of it, alam mo yung feeling na perfection but we aren't, yet somehow we must aim for it. Then shoot lang din yung devo about joy. After love is joy, sa mga fruits na sweet and juicy sa Galatians.

I'll just focus on joy ne? Kasi if walang joy, how can you be an instrument of grace, para lang batingaw na nag-iingay ng walang kabuluhan. Also joy is tested in perseverance which fuel the Christian to be an instrument him/herself.

Lately, I'm asking do I still have joy inspite of? Pero I'm still grateful pa din naman, kaya lang ang hirap once may contradiction. Please pray for me na lang.

If we want to be an instrument of His grace, then more time with Him and also things about Him must be invested which is the answer above. Di ba, hindi cool, ako?

Okay, nasaan na yung outline, wala pala. Ang kulit lang din ng term, as we become instrument of grace, we both reach people na walang pang personal relationship with Christ as well, we are an instrument as we sing our praise to our Creator.

If you read until to this point, that would be all. Thanks.

I already forgot things about it and also the characters, but I'll try my best, so stay with me. This will be fast.

It's the book I read during that time, its really memorable read then after that event I still continue reading it. Along with my Bible reading that time, its the other book that pull the tears out of my eye socket when Aslan comes. I don't know but it made the word “yearning” and “longing” more meaningful.

That scene when both girls looking for him, and when they found him or he just reveal himself, forgot it. The joy. I did cry in that part too.

Eternity. Death.

Two big words and it depends to the person how he or she weigh those two words.

Lets focus on eternity. Do you long for it? Do you yearn for it? Are you in pain when you say, come Lord Jesus come.

Reminds me of Christians during the Roman Empire and throughout the Church history where those who believe got persecuted.

Yet the burning desire and longing fuel them, running the race in the path less taken until that day comes, that'll they see Him face to face.

If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world. —C.S. Lewis

Note: isinulat sa Taglish

Wordpress is cool, and Simplenote is simple but I'm looking for aesthetics too, then I found this blogging platform last year, signed up, wrote something, got bored, deleted it with no drafts behind, oh I loved burning bridges with my creativity but not relationships ha, sila lang naman mahilig mang-iwan, then I deleted the free account.

Guess what? They are now paid. OMG. I rant sa bird app, then got a response. Rant talaga eh.

This is a 14-day trial didn’t put my card kasi wala ng laman, SM Disadvantage Card pwede ba? at may new subscribtion plan daw sila na mas mura...lets see, for sure. I'll be force to write kahit wala na kwenta sinasabi ko, atleast hindi ako Tiktoker or Youtuber. I won't earn din naman, eh kung sya ang prize, panalo talaga.

But there was a time I'd create a Tiktok account just to follow a certain being, ala natuwa lang ako. Epic lang algorithm ng Tiktok, its bad for my eyes, I chose what I need to see , like the way I eye on h...lol, kaya delete account, uninstall, sayonara. IG na lang. 🙃

Being plain, and boring and absolutely weird, as someone says, is my genre, though madami na nagsabi. Madami ba talaga? All I can say it's part being of “Lopez ka nga talaga” not the family from the south ha, but from the north, pero di rin po ako BBM, pwede siguro ako na lang ang BBmo BBmo.

Did check bird app, at madami din gumagamit nito, siguro noong free pa, some are Indonesian or Malaysian or Indian? Ewan ko, na-curious lang naman, parang ako sa kanya kaya lang saka na lang.

Tindi bawat paragraph may hugot. Tapos sa huli, iba pala ang huhugot sa kanya, siya pala at hindi ako, ano na?, justice, where is?

On the other hand, sa kabilang kamay.

I started buklating an old devotional I bought when I stepped foot here in the metro after my first week sa work. It was my first Sunday service, decided to go to Galleria, sa Victory Ortigas, nilakod ko ate kuya, probinsyano e. Nag Google maps pa ko noon, January 2016 yun .

It was an influential devotional ni tatay ko which I read back during college days. My Utmost For His Highest by Oswald Chambers. If you check Walls of Nehemiah before, tadtad ng quotes niya mga post ko doon iirc, wala nga lang aesthetics.

Father's copy was a gift edition, ganda grabe, sa sobrang gamit, nag divorce na yung mga pages. The one I have was the ordinary paperback updated edition. So happy at less nose bleed, kasi yung kay father dear, KJV, the updated one used NKJV. Sakin naman, naligo sa highlights at underline at fold.

Though I have other devos, even digitally, I think you'll return to the one that really push you. I do have na yung 2 volume ng Voices from the Past, pero magagamit din sila.

Devotionals are just patikim sa mas matinding handa ni Lord sa'tin, I'm sure meron mga nag strike talaga sa puso nyo noong nabasa nyo yung mensahe, kahit nakalimutan mo na yung backup na verse.

Waiting is not sitting with folded hands doing nothing, but it is learning to do what we are told. —O.C.