BoringYetGraceful

Significantly Trivial

originally posted: September 12, 2022

It's been a while since I started writing again. From being serious up to being something “si Em ba ito?”

Kunwari vlogger lang tayo pero walang matinong content but for a life update. By the grace of God, i decide to get in shape and that also fuel my daily devo, they go hand in hand if matisod yung isa, then dapa na balik sa simula. In fact yung 3 takal na bigas sa bahay, okay lang samin 3, last na uwi ko, nakakalahati ko na sya.

Work will be stressful soon, so this things are my shield, cuz He is. If i don't put the work (faith must be workout) baka ma high blood na naman ako next na APE next year.

From the past week its a ismol win, I can say. Life a battle so we move forward for the hope we know that God will never let go. Soli Deo Gloria!

In joy, in pain, in Christ

originally posted: September 9, 2022

A Dream of Being There

10% of it I'm happy but 90% of it I was not. It was a sweet dream and also a bitter nightmare. Ever since that day I dream of the girl I like years ago, I don't even trust it. Yes, I did made a move, prayed for it with all my heart, alam mo nangyari? Wala.

For this one, I can't believe it happened in a dream, natawa na lang ako pagkagising ko kanina hahaha! With a cringe smirked in my face. I don't even know how we got together, how the dating started and everything, yes I like her but there's ton of things that hinders heaven and earth...like gravity. Mamaya ko kayo sagutin bakit ganito ako. Pero asa kung sasagutin nya ko.

The dream or nightmare revolve around social pressure and ridicule, I know even in Christian circles and family these things exist like how divisions exist, and levels exist, so where is Christ love?

Ewan ko bakit nagkaganun siguro yung POV ko lang talaga iba kasi yun ang nakikita ko eh? The other side of the river is different. Think of church of Corinth, ang gulo diba? Ano ang love kung para ka lang clashing Zildjian cymbals.

It's sweet we became us, but the people and parents is the challenge instead of a help. Parang si Tomozaki tuloy ako sa POV ko sa life in that aspect. Di ko alam if may plus points once those things happen, but it'll be a MIRACLE. Walang forever, walang himala...kelangan bang mag-ask ako sa heaven ng isang miracle.

A Rant of Cowardice

I've already move on from the past 😁 but I cannot say I'm ready 😒. The chills of feeling in love is there. The kilig and everything pero may pero eh. Ngl, I'm praying this situation bakit ganito ako, siguro takot lang masaktan or manakit or ano pa, tapos walang pambayad ng damage fee ng puso. Sana yung mga narereject pwede mag ask ng compensation of damage.

Yung situation ko siguro I can say I love you with the love of the Lord, but I love you in a romantic sense, hindi ako aabot doon. Normal lang naman yun diba? For sure other guys stand in a different ground if the lady is pretty in their eyes or not. It's like why did you attend there? For me atm again, If I fall in love with Venus orrrrrrrrrrr.... how does it feel? .....wala. Kahit isipin ko pa yung tier ng life, parang Lord why?

Can't say manhid dahil sa nakaraan? The love of Jesus is sweet. But romance is a different one. Songs of songs reflects both Christ love and as well the love within marriage but I see it now on the former one.

Do I already give up? I think yes atm. Hirap na mareject. Try mo ikaw kaya? Friends lang talaga eh sorry.

An Apology

Gomenasai for all the rant and random words. Sa ngayon yan ang position ko. Pupusuan ko lahat ng pwedeng pusuan pero hanggang doon lang talaga ako e, I pray na sana there's always a better Christian guy out there for you and it's not me, walang impossible kay Lord malay mo maging tayo..

...magkasabay papasok ng church, kasama mo sya...ako? smile lang.

originally posted: September 4, 2022

Doing full burpees is pain but worth it to shape the body, as well reading God's Word to shape the soul of man. September comes in, it still rain like there's no tomorrow, few typhoons but soon the amihan season will come in while that known tune plays on the background.

From the last month, I'd try my best to have a solid Bible reading using that known Bible app para makita ko yung daily streak ko, though some days I cheat, yes I confess. I just log but don't read, but as of writing a finished a 7-day devotional and I'm happy, the content hits well to me. Changing some perspective in those kind of things that I'm hoping will come soon in the near future.

I think, that would be all for this chapter. I'll keep it short but hoping I can write more until we hit 100 chapters of this Boring blog.

originally posted: August 27, 2022

Bewildered beyond imagination My reality already conducts electricity Insulators on repair Fighting against the wave of the unknown Will you reach me by your hand Or just stare at me as my ground shatters As I reach my end

While you and your smile You never got hold of something Yet holds everything The pain in my neck that struck me on that trek It was my genesis but to you It's your fulfillment to find the genuine end

Running away from that certain thing I already lost my dream, my goals, everything Forget how to love, even this heart still looks beating Faked happy smiles revolve Oh come on, just let them marry and do the honors That Adam and Eve initiated that filled the planet As I count them gone one by one Then what would be the end? Forget love, forget everything

God can you hear my scream?! Looking for help, help is looking Where, when will you come again? Your Word still lingers in this heart Who longs to be an instrument of your grace The grace that still carry me As I crawl in this mire and you continually lifted me But I still return

#poem

originally posted: August 22, 2022

Alam mo yung pakiramdam na you're trying to force your self to do things you like pero tinatamad ka na, though walang sense at least something achievable naman sya, for the sake of achieving something.

Ano na bang naatim natin sa buhay? Wala. Siguro nabayaran ko na yung mga utang at pinipilit mag ipon pero wala eh. Olats na pre, I quit! Suntukan na lang, aabangan kita sa gate!

Nice drama lang...

Have you ever feel the odds is always against you? Yung sobrang blessed ka sa pagpapala ng odds going against you, parang pagpapalo lang din yun in-short, pero gora bells lang.

Endure until the end, minsan nag-rarant na (parang ako). Pero tuloy pa din. At least, baka sakaling, sana, ano ba? Yung lakad with the Lord, naging gapang with the Lord na.

Siguro dito na lang muna.

originally posted: August 17, 2022

New Platform

I changed the platform again due to the payment needed, I'm not that blessed financially (aka stable) but I'm grateful to have a job and earn some for a living and still troubled what should I aim for. Jowa? Nah, forget them (di nga ko stable)

If it's your first time reading reading these non sense blog post I'm writing and calling them chapters because it's a chapter of my life, I just don't know what volume are we, maybe volume 32?

You can still check the chapters from Write.as but those from Simple note, I'll be no longer sharing them. Lucky for those who with me from the start, I'm grateful, I want to cry.

The Preparation For Tomorrow With A Subtle Hints of Uncertainty

If we are aiming for something, we prepare for it, either we need it or we just loved it. Like preparing for emergencies and preparing for a date with someone then she won't show up. Man, life is cruel but when you have Christ in your heart, there's still hope just trust the process and timing (Boiling Waters PH lang?)

Christians are called, to be always ready, as we walk in this earth, ready to defend and proclaim His Word, ready to help our fellow believer or someone in need and ready for His return. That's something worthy preparing to aim for.

Easier said than done though, as I said life is cruel but Christ is our hope because He is the target of that hope, no more no less.

The Beauty Of Aiming The Unreachable Expectations

As we prepare and aim for something, there's a beauty that comes along with it. It's normal to grow old, have white hairs or no hair at all but growing up is a matter of choice. Aiming someting is also a matter of choice. Believing and accepting Jesus as your Lord and Saviour is a matter of choice which the body, mind, and soul needs to align and nothing can compare to its beauty once you say Yes to Him.

And once we aim, we are expecting something in return, tumaya ka ng lotto syempre inaasahan mo sana manalo ka. The word “sana” in English “if”...sorry if it's wrong basta yun na yun. My English is now suffering.

Mostly in life expectations can be certain or uncertain but being in Christ, we are always certain, whether it bring us pain or joy, still it's a matter of choice if we will hold unto Him. Growing in Him is hard but its beautiful.

Encircled By Eccentricities, Comforted By Abnormalities

Imagine you're an archer, you spend time training and gaining EXP until you reach level 9999 and now it's looks like you're cheating, infact you used Game Shark (sana gets nyo). That's not life. As we aim for something and beholding the beauty of it along the process, the eccentricity of life aka struggle is like a tsunami that wall around you, facing your giant ikanga nila.

At yun nga, sa kabilang kamay, merong mga abormnalidad na nasa palad mo na tumawag kay Kristo sa oras ng pangangailangan, like that King of Judah from the book of Chronicles, and help comes.

Therefore things we aim for only hit it right when everything is really right. It's not almost perfection but its the joy that counts on our hearts that He can only give to us.

If we aim for wrong things, it wouldn't give us joy and if we missed the mark, it's the same. There won't be an everlasting beauty on it even it looks cool to the world.

written in Tagalog-English originally posted: July 31, 2022

I think frustration wins when we literally stop on what we are working pero mananalo lang naman siya if huminto ka na talaga at di ka na umusad sa buhay.

Salip kuwit, nilagyan mo agad ng tuldok. At least fresh start naman ang kasunod ne? Ang tanong gusto mo ba mag simula ulit?

Lahat naman tayo may kinauumayan, pwedeng yung katabi mo sa tarbaho, trabaho mo, kapitbahay mo, or ex mo na nakahanap agad ng kapalit sa'yo the next day after ng break-up, after 48 years ikaw single pa din, ang lala di ba. Mafru-frustrate ka talaga, pero kung may Kristo ka naman sa puso mo, sinong pang hihigit sa Kanya? Diba? Diba????

I think frustration is non sense, given the fact even a faith small like candle can lit you up in to a raging 🔥 The disciples got frustrated? ewan ko pero lahat ng bumangga sa kanila giba, Paul? Mas epic pa ginawa nya and all the man of faith in Christian history, like the Puritans.

Life is cruel nowadays in a different way, hindi mo kailangang physically maaksidente para mag-panic, tunog pa lang ng viber notification, pang-meme na agad yung reaction. 😳

When we're frustrated, we're troubled, no peace, sheep-on-panic, God amnesiac mode-on. I know we have different reasons about it but if you a child of God, the everlasting arm of Christ the comforter is waiting. All your frustration was already been nailed on that cross. Take heart, run to Him all you weary and take rest.

“Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” — Matthew 11:28-30

written in Tagalog-English originally posted: July 30, 2022

Wala ko maisip na topic, walang nag-suggest eh, ang hina ko talaga, pero oks lang. Life runs like that way, but if you want it that way. Takbuhan mo din si life.

Memories of Melody and Harmony

Never in my layp na that I'll learn to play a musical instrument pero ever since childhood, our father's gitara is nakakalat lang sa bahay. My bigbro plays too, i think its one part of growing up in a Xtian household, musical instrument is given if the believer pursue or long to sing praise to God. Lalo na if may house Bible studies, ngl, before 10 y/o ako naririnig ko na yung mga 90's na worship song na mabenta that time. Siguro sa iba organ/keyboard/piano, sa iba drums? Or violin , rondalla, bandaya kawayan, kanta ng ng Sintang Paaralan...okay stop.

Thats a legit HiStory to me. Then there was a time in my life when I opened my eyes...the guitar was infront of me + a song hits (of xtian song + a cd )na instrumental) sa irrc its a minus one then ung kanta nasa song hits then sing it, buti na lang mag melody to follow. I learned to sing “ As the Deer” that time, not hearing the original song itself. Then may kanta din ng Hillsong yung “in your hands” that was my first song to play and sing synchronized, took me 1 month to learn basic chords, 2 months oks na.

Sobrang hype ko nun pagkauwi gitara, nalala ko pa nagalit si mama pinaglaba ako after ko mag gitara. Omg. I was 2nd yr H/s that time. Fast forward, our church that time decline in musicians, and the team that time took me to play drums.

Searching the Right Tune Beyond Expectation

Learned to play the basic 3 except keys pero inaral ko din basic chords para atleast alam ko mangopya ng chords pag di ko alam yung kanta.

4th year H/S that time was sweet, no im not on a relationship that time (basted e) sweet in a way, part of me need to learn more about the instrument. The passion is burning, baka maging uling ka pag hinawakan kita.

Entering college, I hate math, pero nakapasok sa Eng'g. Its a blessing kuya chor was the catalyst to teach me in depth and learned lead guitars. Yup self learning since then, cant read notes but I know power tab, guitar pro, and the tab it self.

Got interested into a dozen of music genre too.

Ang kickback lang, the frustration when you dont get want you want. Yung iba magaling, ikaw hindi, sya pogi, ako mas pogi diba? Umoo ka nalang.

There was an article about musician growth, horizontal and vertical. I can say I'd grow vertically. Learn the techniques the speed, the scale etc but never learned quite a handful of song. Though the technique helps to learn songs, pero minsan un nga frustration pag di mo nakuha.

As a guitar player, I always look at the guitarist during worship service kapag alam ko, ui may singit doon, ui may lead na kaunti doon etc. Its kind of distraction din sa totoo lang. Though i nee thought na, sana ako yung andoon. I know the feeling yung andoon sa taas noh. Its not just a performance or anything.

Unlimited Supply of Sweetened Grace Encapsulated by His Everlasting Love that Resonates Eternity

2003-2016 yan ang career ko hahaha, nahinto eh since started working in the city. Kasama na din jan yung nagkaroon ng banda, pero di nagkajowa pambihira. Learned a lot not just music also deepening the faith. Worship in music isn't run by emotion but kung paano tayo nakatukod sa pananampalataya kay Lord. May time na tumatayo ako na hindi ako okay, iba yung tunog pramis. Ano pa silbi ng pag strum ko ng gitara kung walang pag ibig?

Back in the OT days, the Levites are skillful kasi they are dedicated in the temple. Isa sa mga inspiration ko, pero now na on hiatus i can still be skillful pa din naman sa ibang bagay sa buhay ne?

Thats me sharing memories about how I learned playing guitar. Masakit sya sobra tapos maglalaba pagkatapos, tapos bath towel pa walang washing machine, katapusan ko na!!!!

Sinulat ko ng impromptu kaya pasensya na saali mali, atleast sana na enjoy mo. Salamat.

originally posted: July 23, 2022

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. -Psalm 23:4 NASB

Whenever I'm lost and stress, this verse pulls me off from the miry clay as well when I really lost it, yung bang wala ka na sa hulog or wisyo. Kasi naging sheep na sa Isaiah 53 eh. Feeling plain rice.

All of us like sheep have gone astray, Each of us has turned to his own way; But the LORD has caused the iniquity of us all To fall on Him. -Isaiah 53:6 NASB

But if you look both verse, the one who gives comforts also sacrificed himself...sa pasaway na tupa.

Cause Christ loves abounds, yun lang.

originally posted July 23, 2022

Mga Simula

Welcome to my new blog after 48 years of searching my writers voice, ganun pa din naman, walang pinagbago. I had 3 blogs before pero deleted na sila lahat, its about personal development, writing and nakalimutan ko na yung isa. Meron akong isang existing sa Medium pero di ko bet yung social media function nya. I prefer yung ganito lang, if you know the blog Zen Habits, simple lang yung UI.

That's for the intro, decide to write and test the three C's, commitment, consistency and content. I failed back then sa 3 blog, pero committed po ako if ever maging tayo, promise. My only problem is the content kaya mejo epic fail na sa iba. Kaya ngayon ang content ko, isipin mo na lang sumasayaw ako sa Tiktok. Joke, wala...wala akong content...kasi content na ako sayo.

Mga Tanong

Siguro minsan marahil nabasa nyo yung linya na “boring yet graceful” sa IG ko ne? Its just my profound thinking back then that I'm a boring person (coming from me) but God is graceful. That's when I coined that phrase. Cool diba? Please say yes na lang po. Also nasa isip ko din mga figure skater at ballerina ang graceful ng moves nila pero boring panoorin, kaya hindi ako nanonood.

As for the entries, I'll try weekly muna. Hirap gumawa ng content, kakanta ba ko o sasayaw? Ipipinta na lang kita sa puso ko baka sakaling mapasakin ka, di ko man maipangako sayo ang bituin, buwan at araw. Mananatili ikaw lamang ang tanging mamahalin sinta....okay stop (in Japanese accent)

Okay, hindi po hugot to para sa crush ko (pero sana mabasa nya, ingats poh, wink wink) The entries will be a collection of random stuff, you don't need to subscribe or like it. I just want to write and polish the unsung talent, sulipat din grammar ko, I knew.

Random stuff, maybe from Puritans to IU or ano yung almusal ko, bakit upset yung stomach, nalaglag ako sa kanya pero di ako sinalo, mga ganun ba ... And I will only post the link once, kaya hindi nyo na mababasa yung older post unless i save nyo yung content, sesendan ko kayo ng DMCA, copyright infringements.

Mga Katapusan

If you had fun reading please share, NO stop! Just want to cherish this content with few people from my IG circles. Ako yung mata, kayo yung eyebag, diba sobrang close? You circle around me. Epic na joke. Sana bumenta.

If you have comments, suggestions or violent and vehement reaction. Just DM me, I'll send my Gcash QR code for every inquiry lol. Okay, see ya next chapter. Thanks!